Walt Grace's Submarine Test, January 1967

Big shoutout to the 3 girls- Zann, Nic and Gee.

Had a really good chill out day with them today x (more pictures from Nic's cam tomorrow)

Walt Grace, desperately hating this whole place

Dreamed to discover a new space and buried himself alive
Inside his basement
Tongue on the side of his face meant
He's working away on displacement
And what it would take to survive
Cause when you're done with this world
You know the next is up to you


And his wife told his kids he was crazy
And his friends said he'd fail if he tried
But with the will to work hard and a library card
He took a homemade, fan blade, one-man submarine ride


That morning the sea was mad and I mean it
Waves as big as he'd seen it deep in his dreams at home
From dry land, he rolled it over to wet sand
Closed the hatch up with one hand
And pedaled off alone
Cause when you're done with this world
You know the next is up to you


And for once in his life, it was quiet
As he learned how to turn in the tide
And the sky was aflare when he came up for air
In his homemade, fan blade, one-man submarine ride


One evening, when weeks had passed since his leaving
The call she planned on receiving finally made it home
She accepted the news she never expected
The operator connected the call from Tokyo
Cause when you're done with this world
You know the next is up to you


Now his friends bring him up when they're drinking
At the bar with his name on the side
And they smile when they kid, as they speak of the man
Who took a homemade, fan blade, one-man submarine ride

Finally.

So, that day I was sitting at a certain night food place and somebody came up to me, touting.
I smiled at her, shook my head and looked away. My companion, in turn, took out his wallet and gave her a dollar.
So then I felt complied to do the same
When this whole exchange was over, he turned to me and asked "Since when are you so cold to people?"

In retrospect, I used to give money to absolutely anyone I saw touting or busking, but for some reason nowadays I hardly do that anymore. Huh. Thinking if it's because I've become more guarded, or because I've become more heartless.
"It's tiring to always be on your guard, yknow"

Comfort

How I spent my day:

Belief is a beautiful armor, but makes for the heaviest sword

Current achieved goal:
Do some cardio ✓
Take more pictures with my digital camera ✓
Have alone time more often ✓

Current mood:
Contented


Current craving:
Spicy ramen
Chocolate cake
Honey green tea
Mos burger
BFC Ayam Penyet

Current dread:
The possible chinese tuition, if my teacher even remembers that I'm supposed to have a session tomorrow

Currently looking forward to:
The holidays to "officially" begin
Meeting a thousand of people I haven't seen in ages, and eating good food
Spending more time with people that make me laugh

Current favourite picture:

My kittycat blinking with such a glum face because I took a picture of him with flash!

Current fad:
Hats &
Dresses
Tattoos

Current state of mind:
Sane
(Well, for now)

Simple enough

1. Smoothie date on a friday night
2. Looking forward to the day of Chinese O levels, the day I'm going to meet the cuz for a late celebration for Z @ Marina barrage
3. Working my best (well about 70%) to get a distinction for MT. I WILL NOT LOSE THIS TIME.
4. Still kind of wondering what I did wrong, in terms of R, heck... You can't have everything
5. Need to get my ass outta this house and go for a long run, soon. I can just feel myself getting lazier and lazier as each day progresses, and soon I'm not even going want to work out anymore and when you see me, I WILL be fat.
6. Anticipating the getaway in June, a mere 4 days is more than enough for me to leave Singapore and leave everybody here for awhile.
7. Also excited for my birthday, a whole day at USS followed by dinner with my mother and sister. I've always loved birthdays.
8. "Walking like a one man army, fighting with the shadows in your head"
9. Gonna be spotted regularly at NLB over the June Holidays. Don't think any worse of me!
10. Forgetting to follow my favourite series- HIMYM. Pity, I need more time for myself
11. Trying to decide whether I'm an extrovert or introvert. Leaning more towards the extrovert side, but recently it doesn't seem so
12. It's funny how people and things change so quickly. 5 more months and my journey in Temasek is over. As much as I detest the way things are run(ran?) in our school, I sure am going to miss it...
13. : to be happier. 
14. :( bye x
15. (forgetting to add: since J's birthday and mine's coming up, hoping to find time to meet up with him and Trish over the hols x)

Cats and other things.

Things that scare me:

1. Silence that fills your ears- because I fear that you will always hear whispers eventually.
2. Shadows of trees at night that take the shape of things you have only seen in your dreams
3. Losing my memory, losing the thoughts of my past
4. Losing the people(& cat) I care too much for, too early to Death.
5. Deafening, angry thunder that comes after the blinding white flash of lightning
6. Losing my voice, so I can't speak my mind anymore.
7. Compromising my morals and becoming somebody that society wants me to be.
8. Having the people that care about me to be pretending all along
9. Not waking up in the morning to our world
10. Forgetting to have faith in humanity.

Things that I wish I could say to the whole world:

1. Fuck you, 
2. and the stupid technology you've come up with
3. To ruin perfectly great people, perfectly fine people
4. People who were once my everything.
5. Fuck all of you.
6. Fuck everyone who "cares"
7. And a big fuck you to well, generally humanity.

Ha. How ironic.